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Thursday, February 28

Oh no today is thursday!
Darn darn darn! my mid-term break is almost over.. left tmr, tmr tmr and tmr tmr tmr! I have not completed half of what i intend to do! Cleared some readings but the stack of readings seemed unchanged. GE 3226 tourism report 30% done. I keep thinking my reports are not very well academically written. =/ Have not revised for MA1104, MA2312 and LAB2201 mid-term tests. *haiyo..wo de ma ya..

I just went to look at youcai's blog. poor thing got so many things to do too! I hate it most when i did something on the com and for some reason either server down or hang or crash or "page fail to show" or whatever crap.. my hardwork just gone after a click. Thats why i always "copy" the whole chunk of what i've typed before sending it or smth.

Been thinking for a few days (intensively) whether to go for church camp or field studies. I had always yearn to go for church camp, missed out the last 2 camps because my dad didn't allow me to. This year i guess with two options on hand, in which if he let me go for field studies, guess he will miss me badly if not, i will got for church camp. Not knowing which seems better, in the end he let me choose. I felt quite bad initially because it was as if i force him to the wall and he felt equally sad if i go for either one. I was quite at a loss for a moment, felt like tearing because of his reaction, troubled by which to go for, and stunned by how God allows him to let me choose. In the midst of all these, guess i was a little overwhelmed and forgot that it was just afterall a choice to go for a trip.

Actually i was quite sure about going for field studies and intended to ask him to let me go for that only. And while i was doing Quiet Time on 22nd Feb, the psalms for that day was: "Who is the one who fears the Lord? He will show him the way to choose." Psalms 25:12. Wow i was so convinced this phrase was for me. There and then i confessed that i was fearful of my dad and not because i want to go for the field studies only. So in the end, i asked my dad which he will allow me to go for. Well, i didn't expect it to turn out this way.

But through this decision making process, i learnt a lot actually - about how much i believe and know about God. I think it was all divine arrangement to make me go through this way and through it all, reflect upon my thoughts and how much i trust in God. Yup..it was..necessary.

Heli Dont ask me why 7:32 PM

Monday, February 25

Another fallen

Life is fragile. But God is in control. I have another friend that is an ophan now. Feeling a little heavy, and a little more and more as i dwell on it further. Its very sad really. All that you can do is to pray for grace and mercy to fall upon him. I pray that the loss of the father will bring in much more love from friends and families around him. Finds it hard to put the picture altogether, you wonder why things are as such. how could such things happen and what kind of reasons are there for it to happen..

God, only you know and you are in control i know. Please i pray you'll be with him. Grant him strength to face each new day..

Heli Dont ask me why 8:46 PM

Find that i'm rather inconsistent in my blogging! duh not what it is supposed to be. Well, will try to update often!

started my term break as of last friday 4pm. Haha. was looking forward to this week cos don't have classes.. but plenty of readings and assignment and revision to kill! the thought of it makes me breathless...

lets see this is what we have after holiday:
MA 1104 term test
MA 2312 term test
LAB 2201 term test
GE 3226 written report 1
GE 2218 practical report
MA 1104 tutorial 3 & 4
MA 2312 tutorial 4

duh. use one day each to clear one assignment also not enough!

what i'm looking forward to in march:
mummy's bday!
easter day!
pulau ubin trip with children!
church honouring dinner!
great discussions for BB & GB camp!

yupppp. kind of excited about this year camp! praise & worship campfire! shall look forward to the nice nice happenings in march and ignore the rest! monster march here i come!!!!

Heli Dont ask me why 8:27 AM

Sunday, February 17

Valentine's Day
hah a favourite day for many people (couples?) out there ya. was in school almost the whole day and yes, seen many people with flowers in their hands. Balloons, chocolates, flowers, talking flowers, bears, talking bears and what not. valentine mood in the air!

extraordinary day for me! haha nono i'm not attached yet. but well, i got to know something new this year! (see below)

I didn't know that John 3:16 is a Valentine's day verse! oh well i should have known it. Valentine's Day is a day all about love..and since God is love, how can it not be linked to Him in any way? =P

i thanked God early in the morning for loving me, and putting people in my life to love me. I guess love does not only conform to bgr, it is friendship, relationship with family and even love for the animals and trees and plants!

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

and i thank God that i can love people too. you know sometimes well shows always say "love is selfish" etc. i beg to differ really. i guess to love is a process and we always hit a different stage of love at some point of our life..and the final stage is to love the way how God loves us. Yup. =)

..and this from my mummy. she made it herself ok! =) thanks mum.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:28 PM

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